Mate. Suicidal thoughts are an unfortunate link to human emotion. And, we can be extremely emotional creatures. It can be said to be natural, but it is more accurately understood as chemical. I really enjoy the emotion attached to my memories, experiences and similarities to past loves when I listen to music.. but, I understand that is how we are wired. Not to be calous, but, we must imagine that we have never known those and that which caused our pain. Can you honestly say you feel so emotional over the local news of lives lost in any particular part of the world? No.. because, you do not know them. Sure.. you may be disturbed, as I am, by constant unnecessary loss of human life.. and I often wonder whom those unknowns could have been.. but, I must remember that my existence is much the same as the unknown, to the unknown.
Our connection, loss and subsequent emotion is dictated by much more basic methods than our brilliant "heart" tells us. I feel for you mate. S**t... many moons ago, I swore I was at my end.. it was not pretty. Only a mild amount of time later, I realised I came within a few breaths of my demise over someone I otherwise without having time, comfort and conversation.. I would not have give much s**t about. But, through my misunderstanding of human chemistry, was immediately close to MY life.
I have very little doubt you and your friend are absolutely awesome people, because you're both clearly emotional.. which simply means you're both, quite honestly, more of what this world needs. Just need to have a wee bit of thought as to how more important it is that you both survive, exist and continue to support each other.
Kind of leads me to, like.. why, mate? Clearly more going on. Small steps. These people are very supportive and kewl. I'm just a bit more direct.
But trust me.. my love for the unknown, including you n ya mate, exists quite well.
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