Wow I am not coping.

Hey @_PixieSolstice_ ,

These are very reasonable thoughts and fears @_PixieSolstice_ . At the same time, if someone really cared and loved you, do you think they would look at your "problems"?

i feel that way too, starting to get dark clouds over me. I know it will pass but i hate that feeling in the pit of my stomache.

Do you have things you can do to help you feel better? @scruffypuffball

Coming here and chatting with some people I can relate to helped me today thank-you 🙏

I'm glad to hear @scruffypuffball .

Hope you are okay.

Once upon a time, a long, long time ago.. I used to iinspect my potential partners based on physical appearance. To be fair though, I have always been quite muscular, with the whole bulging veins and people questioning the size of my heart, except for the past 5 years. I currently crush a rats back at ***kg, when I used to sit pretty at **kg [edited by moderator]. But, now I sport a healthy pig eaters belly.

Back when I thought the entire universe was mine, as I've stated, fit as was the requirement.

It was only after being a mongeel for most of my life, experiencing loss of close people including a love I honestly didn't realise I was so attached to.. it dawned on me; I have never stayed with nor truly loved the 110% because I had always been chasing the person that resides within that body. Even stating it was a "body" nowadays seems harsh to me.

But, all too late, and I have always, no doubt egotistically considered myself intelligent.. I realised that I actually had the opportunity to settle with a range of beautiful women throughout my last 30 years.

It was truly never about their size. I have fought battles for many different ladies and have always found the more comfy girls to be better grounded, mentally and yes, physically far greater.

If we be straight and honest here now.. what I'm getting at, is, it actually dead set breaks down to the person/woman inside that body.

I do understand what now drives a standard human, but, it is not always so true. Unless, of course, you do not care about one or the other!? There's a quiz in there... 🤔

Hey @Birdi ,

I'm sorry to hear. It sounds like today was a very difficult day. Did something happen for you to feel this way?

I’m glad to know I’m not alone today 😊 just such a shitty random mood that I didn’t want or need.

I think cause my chronic illness is kinda flaring up at the moment (POTS - it’s stupid and normally under control) and I’ve been stuck in bed with no energy and feeling dizzy that really might of been a trigger of this feeling of “damn I’m not great”

also I think my anxiety is a bitch currently. Ugh.

These feelings you are having are a reaction to a deep seated emotional response.

The anxiety you are have would be stemming from a feeling of loneliness. This can be alleviated by joining a group of some kind, making new friends.

Everyone has someone to love them 😀 for love takes on all sorts of different forms. The love of a partner, friend, family, etc. I know we can feel like no one loves us, I have been there myself... but the way I bring myself back is I remember that love doesn't always have to be the love you get from a partner, as I said.

Also, love comes from yourself as well. Sometimes you also need to re-learn to do that. Once you love yourself, it is easier for others to love you too.

So always remember that even though you might feel by yourself right now, you are never alone; no one is ever truly alone.

One last thing, can I suggest that you talk to someone? A Counsellor or a Psychologist. Just so you can talk through your concerns. Trust me it helps.