So over this shit

Ive been really sick for a bit over a week. Ive had xrays and blood tests, get results Friday. They are concerned about a possible infection in my intestines or a blockage. I feel really unwell and its getting worse. Stomach hates me, I ache, headaches, I keep getting really warm, I cant eat, barely drinking, lot of acid coming up. I dont know if its from being sick of MH but head is like moving through thick custard, having difficulty with vision, like it seems to be wobbly/swirly, sound becomes centralised, like someone talking of the TV becomes the only thing I can hear. Remaining focused on things is really hard.

I seem to be going from one thing to another to another. Id really just like a break, some time off. Its probably my pain meds causing the problem I have, they will treat the issue but I have to stay on the meds which means it could happen again. Even if they were to stop the meds, its gonna take ages for me to come off the meds. It seems like anything we do to deal with my back pain takes the worst possible route.

Pain, Mental Health, Physically Sick, Broke, Family Issues, its all too much, it needs to stop, its too much, Im too overwhelmed, like I dunno, I feel like Im in a boxing ring surrounded by boxers and everytime I turn to find a way out Im punched in the face, as I fall to the floor they all bend over and just pound away. Im hit hard enough to prevent me from moving forward or out they way, but not enough to knock me out. I suffer from every blow, Im trapt, I cant move.