Autism

Hey there @Eden1919,

I can’t say I experienced that exact situation myself, but the journey of questioning and wondering things about yourself and looking for a way of tangibly explaining these things is definitely something that I, and I’m sure others, can relate to. One thing I think is important to keep in mind is that not necessarily every single symptom will apply to every single person, and also not in the same way- like almost everything, it’s as unique as the individual themselves. As they say in the autism community- if you've met one autistic person, you've met one autistic person.

It sounds like the biggest thing for you might be having an explanation for different tendencies you might have, which is totally understandable. From that, I wonder if it might be worth exploring or looking into a little more, in terms of doing a little research, perhaps reaching out to people who identify as autistic. Is this something you’ve started doing, apart from this post (which is a great step)?

A few places you could look at if you'd like is Yellow Ladybugs, which is an organisation specifically for women & girls (+ non binary folk), and also the Autistic Professor, which is the platform of a late diagnosed autistic woman. I hope this might be helpful, but feel free to keep reaching out as you continue to explore this aspect of your identity and I hope others with similar experiences might find you here soon 😊

@TideisTurning thanks i have been looking at others experiences with it but that just brings up even more questions for me which can be really frustrating i am really lost idk what else to do. i just feel like everything is all shaky and unstable like yes i identify in some ways but is that enough idk i am explaining terribly right now but i just feel like i need answers and idk why this has never bother me this much. i really dont know.

@creative_writer yes i have seen multiple psychs about it and none of them can make up their minds it is always written on my records as "possible" or "suspected" or "traits" of autism but no actual answers they have been questioning this since i was 2 and they still cant make up their minds.

@creative_writer sorry for the late reply, some of the traits do resonate with me and i think it would explain some things for sure i guess i just dont know if i resonate with enough stuff idk it is really hard and confusing to be honest.

@creative_writer yes i guess that is what i am trying to figure out a possible new way of understanding myself perhaps a way to feel more comfortable about myself too like maybe if this is why certain things have been happening i dont have to feel so embarrassed or guilty idk it is hard to explain. the label itself is not so much what i care for but i would like some answers as to why certain things have been happening and why i cant seem to understand them.

@creative_writer thanks i tried talking to my psychologist about it and she did say she does consider me as having autism but we didnt get to talk about it much more so idk really i still have a lot of questions.