Delusional disorder

Hello @Sandellma

Welcome to the forums! I hope you find some comfort in connecting with other members

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with your delusions, however, is it good that you have professional support.

Here is a thread that you might be interested in reading through - it is now closed. It is a topic tuesday thread on psychosis. I wonder if there are any other members that could share their experiences? @Sehnsucht, @Linmerc, @Snuchu?

Take care,

Jac-in-the-box.

@Sandellma ,

Welcome to the forums!

I speak from my experience, but delusions for me are not an overnight development. Some of my past ones were years in the making before culminating in my lack of self-care.

Many people cherry-pick information, ideas, facts, to feed or justify their position on any one topic. It is common, which to me suggests it is something that requires being conscious of. So it is hard to fight delusions, as the ways of thinking that combat them aren't readily practiced or taught by the majority.
This is my observation, and I don't have much to support it. Perhaps this line of thought is itself delusional. I don't really know, I have seen too many insults to logic this last month regarding local community behaviours and wider news events. Ironically, in the face of it all, feeling like I have more logic and knowledge of empirical data to support my position, I find myself pushing back invasive thoughts of 'uh-oh, well this shiz isn't real, there must be a more complete reality somewhere, my eyes are closed to truths through conditioning', or 'well.... this all feels rather centred on me and too full of coincidences. Truman Show? Matrix? Experiment?'.

So I guess I'm saying my experience is that delusions don't formulate and rally around in my brain overnight, and as such, they don't just dissipate the next morning after finallly taking on that the logic is flawed, or that I am suffering too much with the burden of the 'truth' and want to walk away back into 'blissfull innocence'. It takes work, conscious effort. It was really stressful challenging my escalated delusions, it felt insulting, ridiculous, for me I felt led to seeing life as an inception of delusions, the fight against delusion a dellusion itself and so on. But over time, life being what it is, habits and routine, I found my way out of the limbo and into functioning without intentional thought and with what feels geniune emotion and response. For a long time I felt that sense of 'well, what happened there was ridiculous!' rather than 'my life before my awakening was so ridiculous, I can't imagine living like that!'. But I don't know if it's politics or parenting or if it's just a 15 year cycle for me, I'm feeling a bit detached and disillusioned with 'reality' of late.

What strategies do your psychs offer? x

@Sandellma
Welcome to the forums!

I speak from my experience, but delusions for me are not an overnight development. Some of my past ones were years in the making before culminating in my lack of self-care.

Many people cherry-pick information, ideas, facts, to feed or justify their position on any one topic. It is common, which to me suggests it is't something that requires being conscious of. So it is hard to fight delusions, as the ways of thinking that combat them aren't readily practiced or taught by the majority.
This is my observation, and I don't have much to support it. Perhaps this line of thought is itself delusional. I don't really know, I have seen too many insults to logic this last month regarding local community behaviours and wider news events. Ironically, in the face of it all, feeling like I have more logic and knowledge of empirical data to support my position, I find myself pushing back invasive thoughts of 'uh-oh, well this shiz isn't real, there must be a more complete reality somewhere, my eyes are closed to truths through conditioning', or 'well.... this all feels rather centred on me and too full of coincidences. Truman Show? Matrix? Experiment?'.

So I guess I'm saying my experience is that delusions don't formulate and rally around in my brain overnight, and as such, they don't just dissipate the next morning after finallly taking on that the logic is flawed, or that I am suffering too much with the burden of the 'truth' and want to walk away back into 'blissfull innocence'. It takes work, conscious effort. It was really stressful challenging my escalated delusions, it felt insulting, ridiculous, for me I felt led to seeing life as an inception of delusions, the fight against delusion a dellusion itself and so on. But over time, life being what it is, habits and routine, I found my way out of the limbo and into functioning without intentional thought and with what feels geniune emotion and response. For a long time I felt that sense of 'well, what happened there was ridiculous!' rather than 'my life before my awakening was so ridiculous, I can't imagine living like that!'. But I don't know if it's politics or parenting or if it's just a 15 year cycle for me, I'm feeling a bit detached and disillusioned with 'reality' of late.

What strategies do your psychs work through with you? x

@Sandellma , oh! The "I'm an untapped potential" delusion, lol. I'm going to be a world renknown and amazing literary presence one day, you know. That's if I don't take up an instrument or sinignig first, because I hold on to the delusion that I will be a famous musician with an incredible voice. It is both laughable but true for me at the same time. I rationalise it is nonsense, but in the pit of my stomach I 'know' it to be true.

But if you have others verifying the legitimacy of your idea, maybe it is great? Or do you worry these 'supportive' interactions have been hallucinations? x

In my experience, there are many occasions when I don't realize that my delusion is actually a delusion. It's reality to me. I believed that certain people were watching me and were out to get me, at least in the beginning. Further into my delusion, it started to get complex and eventually they gained a name and I started to hear voices. Every time when I saw my mental health nurse, I told her everything and she gently told me that it was possibly not real and that I was showing symptoms of a delusional psychotic episode.

It's good that you realize it's a delusion, though.

Just work with your psych about it.