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Hi @Needhope ,

It sounds so difficult for you at the moment. I’m sorry to hear of the challenges you are facing with your adult BPD daughter.

In terms of your question, does she ever understand? Yes. Unless there is some impairment or cognitive issue, she certainly understands - but not when she is heightened or triggered.

As soon as the ‘meltdown’ starts, the logical brain is close to non-existent. Only her emotional brain is speaking which means one of the most effective ways is to walk away but let her know you are returning in say, 1 hr. This is a boundary for your own safety, and at the same time, you are telling her you are not leaving/abandoning her.

When you mentioned she can act pre-BPD too, yes, she can. Borderlines are highly sensitive, yet also very warm, passionate and can thrive when in the right environment. Of course I’m not saying you are not providing the ‘right’ environment, but more so in an environment that doesn’t ‘knock’ her emotionally… which is, in fact, impossible.

In other words, BPD is about teaching her skills when she is not triggered so that when she is, she can use these skills. BPD is pretty much a condition that is only evident around people. If there were no people and no need for interpersonal relationships, then no one would ever know there was an issue.

Borderlines are hurting so much inside. They don’t yet have the skills to manage this hurt and to regulate their emotions. Trust me, they do feel bad for hurting people and this often causes them to feel worse and perhaps self harm.

But there is hope. I know because I was one of those borderlines.

I’m here because people didn’t give up on me.

This is me! My 20yo daughter is bpd (no formal diagnosis- she refuses and won’t medicate). I’m learning to now set boundaries with her. It’s hard because of the threats she makes “I don’t want to be here…” etc so of course I want to swoop

in. But I am learning to have boundaries to protect myself and to allow her to gain resilience. Big hugs because I know how hard it is xx

Thank you so much for the information and support @BPDSurvivor. I am trying to learn how to best support my daughter who is an amazing person.

Hi @Needhope and @TaniaMumof2 ,

Boundaries are certainly so important. BPD is such a slow moving condition. It takes years to build up and years to recover. Unfortunately, medication is not so effective with BPD itself (mess work with the symptoms of BPD but not the root of it).

Talking therapies are shown to speed up the rate of recovery. Good news is, BPD is not a life long condition. Most people do recover as they learn more helpful coping strategies.

But I acknowledge this does not take away the hurt every one is currently experiencing. For me, I needed space to find myself. I left home and moved interstate so that I could get away from all the people I knew. I didn’t want to hurt them anymore and I didn’t want to be hurt by them either.

By separating myself from everything I could blame, I learnt that the issue was ME, MYSELF AND I. I kicked at bucked at treatment because I wanted to blame people, but after moving away, I knew that only I could do the hard work in recovery.

The road was not easy. I had many involuntary admissions due to being at high risk. I was close to death at times due to self harm. But then, things started picking up and I’ve never gone back since.

I hear it is hard and I’m not denying that. The main thing is that you remember your own self care so that when they need you, you are there.

And yes, I have reconnected with my family. I still live interstate but we have a stronger understanding of each other now. I respect my parents and family, and always will thank them. But I acknowledge I needed my own space to discover myself.

I’m sitting with you both. I hear the challenges but I also know the strengths of those with BPD.

I’m hear if you need anything.

Thank you so much for your support @BPDSurvivor. Can I please ask what age you were when you realized that you were the one that needed to make changes? I am trying hard to look after myself but it is just so difficult I feel completed defeated. I want to be a strong and supportive person in my daughters life.

Hi @TaniaMumof2 thank you for your support. I can I please ask when did you first notice BPD traits? My daughter also does not have formal diagnosis. Sending you hugs too xxx

Hey @Needhope ,

I can't speak for @TaniaMumof2 , but for me, the traits started in my late teens. I was in my last two years of high school... from being an excellent student to hating school and hardly going.....

Oooo, I didn’t answer your original question so I’ve come back to respond. I realised I had to make changes when I was in my early 30s. About 32-33 years old?

So that means, from the age of 17 to 32, I struggled immensely.

One thing to remember, never try reasoning with them when they are triggered. Both parties will get hurt (emotionally or physically). Give your daughter space to cool down but don’t forget to remind her you are there for her for when she’s ready.

When I look back, I know that if anyone ever told me to do something, I’d do the opposite. Not because I was a rebel, but because my head was so out of control that by resisting, it meant I had some form of control. So for me, orders/commands never worked.

My psychologist always says, “I invite you to….” He never tells me to ‘do this now…’

Sorry for blahing so much. I just want to help as much as possible.

Thank you so much @BPDSurvivor I appreciate all and any advice. I try very hard to never tell my daughter what to do and definitely don’t argue with her when she is triggered. I just wish I could help her more and that I was stronger myself.

Hi @Needhope

I just wanted to reach out to offer you some support 💜

I’m so deeply sorry to hear about everything that’s been happening for you and just from what you’ve shared, it’s completely understandable that you’ve noticed that your mental health is deteriorating and that you’re struggling to cope 💜

Although I don’t have any lived experience in relation to living with BPD that I can share with you, I just wanted to take a moment to share a couple of resources - in the hope that some of these may be helpful for you 💜

The first resource that I wanted to share with you is an organisation called the National Education Alliance for Borderline Personality Disorder.

As well as providing a wealth of information about BPD, they also provide a program called Family Connections which is available across Australia.

Basically, Family Connections is a free, 12 week course that meets weekly for two hours to provide education, skills training, and support for people who are in a relationship with someone who has BPD. Focusing on issues that are specific to BPD, it is hosted in a community setting and led by trained group leaders who are either clinicians or family members of relatives with BPD.

As such, I’ve just shared the link to this particular program below, just in case you would like to take a look:

https://www.bpdaustralia.org/about-family-connections/

The second resource that I thought may be helpful for you is an organisation called the Australian BPD Foundation.

Basically, they provide a wealth of information about BPD such as podcasts, conferences and presentations. They also provide a monthly newsletter that’s full of some great information too.

I’ve just shared the link to their website below, just in case you would like to explore some of their resources further:

https://www.bpdfoundation.org.au/

I really hope that this helps you a little bit and please remember that you’re always welcome to reach out to us here whenever you need to 💜

Take kind and gentle care of yourself,

ShiningStar 💜

Hi @BPDSurvivor I need some help understanding my daughter’s current demands. She is currently very triggered and is demanding that I leave my husband (her father) because he has not been supportive enough to her. She is saying that the ball is in my court and if I don’t leave him she will never speak to me again and I will also be responsible if she hurts herself. I am so scared and worried.