Hi TW:SI. Congratulations to you for realizing you are going through a tough time and reaching out. Well done. Life is a Roller Coaster. The devil does try and take away our joy. But God is faithful and will protect you. The saying is "when you feel like you are walking through hell, keep walking" It is hard. But once you make it, you need to use your experiences you are learning now to help others. Life is not fair. Bad people are around. Good people hurt. Please stand strong and as far as possible ignore what is happening. I do find the journey tiring and isolating. Those around us do not understand what we feel. Please focus on anything good and when you make it, use your talents to help others. You are obviously a very caring person. Caring people feel matters more and that is why we show more empathy for others. Please focus on good things because spiritually God will always defeat the Devil. Always.