Experiences, Idea and story

Hi @LordLeonidason 👋

We have DID too. And over 30 of us share this vessel.

While I'm main/host and often referred to as the born one I really don't think I was orginal as any memories from before 9 are those of other alters but I've been here the longest and I age with the body but I feel out of place and have major body dismorphia or whatever it called and in our inner world I look very different but I have more freedom to be me because to the outside world we are me.

I did name my alters in an older profile but left for a while due to some personal reasons and had had the account closed we decided that this time we aren't naming specific alters either.

Pretty sure last time I was here there was a DID thread but I haven't seen it active.

We have what we call the insomnia demon too but basically we just have insomnia and the last few night our insomnia demon had us cleaning and ... well the house looks worse now 😕 but we will probably keep cleaning till we pass out. It is currently 2:30am here and it was about 5amish when we went to bed the previous night getting 2hrs sleep before waking to get my son ready for school and had about an hour nap after lunch.

Love your art idea we live rural too but hubby finally put in for work transfer so hopefully be back in Brisbane area soon.

You sound like you like crafty things too or at least painting and drawing. We can't draw or paint very well unless it's to colour a picture. But we write, crochet, knit, embroider, cross stitch, long stitch, and make stuff like jewellery with polymer clay, resin and beads.

I just realised it says your new so welcome to the forums.

Hehe now I'm probably rambling. 🤪

Hope something I said helps you feel better.

Welcome, @LordLeonidason , it's good you've joined 🙂

@Twilightsomniac and @LordLeonidason - there are some DID threads - I typed "DID" into the Search Bar above and several threads popped up.

@LordLeonidason An important forum tip is if you type @ and then click on a name in the drop-down box, that person will get a notification and won't miss your reply.

I hope you find the forums supportive...

@Twilightsomniac I am an Alter the original attempted sucide in 2013 which resulted in his "death" (Dissapearance) but the acual death of three of our alters during a fight we had in the Mental Space (we have ahouse i know others have waiting rooms and people with larger numbers can have forest, cities, subway stations and such) the twins and our "Protector" died at the hands of our "Bad Guys / Demons" when we die there is this bright blue light inside of us and depending how they die the light fades away or "exxplodes" and the Alters turn to dust and dissapear forever, one of the fences managed to run though the "Red Door" (where we must go though to take control) while he did that our "Bag Guys / Deamons" dragged and locked three of us in a cage in the basement past the "Vail of Darkness" (our mental space is a house in the middle on the abyss it used to be in a forest but after the "Original" died we lost the forest and the house fell into a little bit of decay now our house sits in the void of black nothing there) however the "Vail of Darkness" has always been there on the far reaches of the "Mental Space" is this great long and high wall of Darkness and though that Darkness is like a battlefield you can hear the creams of things they don't even sound human and the sky is dark and red flashes though the smoke going further though you reach on old bunker with stairs that go down into a baement with a "Cage" in the middle after one of our Fences reasoned the door the two alters who had just murdered 3 of our Brothers (we refer to eachother as Brothers and Sister) dragged us to that bunker and locked us in that cage, a few months passed and they Broke one of us. they released him and the Alter whom was in control that whole time gave them control and they used the body to attempt murder but was thankfully stopped before they could do anything and our Mentor took care of him killing him in the prosess then it was our "little" Alter and myself locked in that cage and when the light was off it was PURE DARKNESS its darker then the void that surrounds our house in the mental space now our "little" was later released becaus they had grown tired of his crying however i being a Nord was harder to break and i was left locked in that Cage for what would end up being 5 years being subjected to unimaginal thing at the hands of my Brothers and Sister Alters, finally i got out and I was given contol because the Little and our Actor whom had been sharing control the whole time i was locked away had not made the best decsions and they had grown tired of the world so i was given control and lets just say that the first year was very hard seeing my body which was not my own hearing a voice which was alien to me i was suffering from PTSD attacks and burst of anger, i still deal with some Phantom pain that the body does not have but my real body does, sleep is still an issue from time to time and since i recovered my humanity i have had to deal with Depression nd such, however with the help of our Mentor i managed to get back on track and i have been the "Main" ever since now the Brothers and Sister whom subjected me to unimaginable nightmares for those five years have and I are friends and all has been forgiven they are even given control some times. that only a part of my story now after writing that i have forgot why i wrote it in the first place, i think the Art idea would be nice not idea whome would do it or if it would even work i was listing to a artist whome had locked himself in a room of mirrors for 24 hours for some self reflection and thats what had given me the idea, im not good at anything im horrible at art can't draw for the light of me but which building a bond whith my Brothers whome had tortured me for 5 years i had to spend some time with them and wile spending time with one of them i did do some painting with Him in the Mental Space so free painting would be cool to do but i can not affored the supplies to do it in real life and there is nothing around my area as far as i know to do something like that, th eeonly other "Artsy" thing i do is i write stories and tell stories i even have a "Book" of roughly 15,000 words that i made a few years back but could never bring myself to finish it because a section of that story Brings me to tears even thinking about thinking about it so it has just been abandoned besides those two very small things i am not the most artsy person nor am i good at any of them

thanks @NatureLover