Factitious disorder

Hi @Pokemon222

I had to look up this condition. I'm not sure how it presents in you but if a psychiatrist diagnoses you with something it is pretty well impossible to get un-diagnosed. If you present with metal illness symptoms that's all most psychiatrists are trained to look at.

Hi there! My mother had both Munchausen's as well as Munchausen's-by-proxy. I'm somewhat intrigued as to why you feel you might have this disorder. Virtually no-one who has factitious disorders would ever admit there is anything wrong with them, and they don't usually seek out treatment for such a disorder in the first place. Can you state as to why you think you might have this disorder?

Hi again @Pokemon222

I'm intrigued, as @SILLYOLD asked, have you been diagnosed with this condition, or is it a self diagnosis? It would be difficult to assess as if you are presenting with mental problems a psychiatrist would first have to assess whether they are real or not, and in my experience most are not that good. Most psychiatrists are "see nail, hit nail". Munchausen syndrome seems like a mental health version of hypochondria, but it would be much worse as if you are diagnosed with a serious enough illness you could be hospitalised or forced on heavy medication and then you would be a bit stuffed. You could spend years getting treatment for something you don't have, and I don't know why anyone would do that. If you are already seeing a psychiatrist, is it for something real or is it part of Munchausen syndrome?

Hi

@justanotherguy and @SILLYOLD thanks for your replies. . I have been seeing my psych for a number of years after being hospitalised several years ago. For depression and borderline personality disorder. She has been supportive and helpful and we have discussed some difficult topics like my self harming and suicidal thoughts.

But yes the factitious disorder is a self diagnosis. It's something I have done off and on for years but never anything major before this. The specific example I'm considering disclosing started last year. (I'm not sure how to explain without details that might breach the rules. So sorry if it's vague) It was triggered when I had an abnormal blood test. The abnormal result actually was likely due to exercise. But I was asked to repeat the test. Before the next test I exercised excessively deliberately to raise the result. What followed was a series of blood tests, referral to a specialist, biopsy which I influenced the result of and treatment

I now regret having done this and would like to stop but I don't know how to just stop seeing the specialist or ceasing the treatment.

I would like to discuss this with my psychiatrist but I am worried what reaction I'll get

Thanks for sharing. Sorry to hear about your mum's difficulties with this. I have no kids/dependents and this is only something I've done to myself

Welcome, @Pokemon222 🙂

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@Pokemon222 wrote:

I now regret having done this and would like to stop but I don't know how to just stop seeing the specialist or ceasing the treatment.

I would like to discuss this with my psychiatrist but I am worried what reaction I'll get

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I would trust your psychiatrist with this, if it was me. You say you want to get off this treadmill, and your psychiatrist may have some strategies to help.

Another throught is maybe if you didn't exercise before the tests, the results would come back to normal? Of course, it sounds much more complex than that, so please ignore if that wouldn't work.

Good luck, whatever you decide to do.

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Firstly, kudos on your courage in asking for help. I have a family member with (self diagnosed) factitious disorder who went through multiple surgeries (disclosed what he was doing to me but not the doctors). From what you've said, what you've done is mild, and I'd encourage you to give yourself a break. It is possible to stop, my family member did, and while he relapsed a couple of times, twenty years later he hasn't done anything factitious for years and years. That was without any professional help.

I'm on the fence about telling someone... If you think you need help to stop, then it might be helpful, but it truly is a very stigmatized diagnosis and I can understand why my relative didn't tell anyone. The problem is that once you tell any health professional, they will tell all the other health professionals involved in your care... Like once you tell your psychiatrist they will tell your GP and vice versa etc. The official line would always be to tell your psychiatrist, but I'm giving you my personal opinion as a medical student who knows someone with the disorder, not the official line. I think my relative might have gone to confession (he's Catholic) and got some help in dealing with it that way. Can you possibly talk to a psychologist? There's a possibility they might give you more confidentiality. I'm not sure if you're happy with everyone involved in your care knowing this... If you are, then I'd encourage you to tell, and if you're continuing the behaviour, I'd also encourage you to tell. But if you're just tortured by guilt, then I can tell you it is possible to get past it cos my relative did. He struggled very much with guilt but is in a very good place now personally and professionally and nobody would dream of his past.

Again, congratulations on asking for help. You're in a very difficult position, with what I think of as nearly the most stigmatized diagnosis ever (factitious disorder by proxy is the only worse one) and you've been extraordinarily courageous. Sorry I couldn't be more help.

Still wonder if there's anyone out there that has experience of this issue?

Hi,

I used to meet criteria for Munchausen Syndrome (I prefer Factitious Disorder). And Borderline Personality disorder. You are free to ask me any questions, I would love the opportunity to help a fellow sufferer recover. When I began treatment (there is treatment(, I told the counselor, "I want to earn the right to have this taken off my file." And I have, though it took time (rebuilding trust), hard work and learning some good coping skills.

First order of business: Be careful what you wish for.

Yes, on occassion, I have thoughts, but I am able to manage them.

For me, it was trauma based in cause. I have a very severely narcissistic and borderline mother and a father who was a severe alcoholic. My mother was violent towards my older (adopted) sister, and has gaslighted me my whole life. When my sister was 15, my mother took her to McDonalds and bought her a Happy Meal and gave her a one-way plane ticket to go back to live with her birth mother (don't have kids if you are going to do that). I was bullied at school as a child (started school at 4 because I wanted to, by the middle of 8th grade, I was essentially refusing to go). I have also been sexually assaulted and witnessed a mass shooting at 19 years old. That's the cause in my case.

Nothing was sacred. I have had unnecessary procedures and feigned illness. It has left me with legitimate and serous medical issues (right now, I have no insurance).

In my experience this will get worse until someone decides it's time to change and sees the error of their ways. What helped?

A Twelve Step Program (I think it needs to be required for this. as it is a severe form of self-harm, an addiction, as well as a program of rigorous honesty

EMDR, or Eye Movement Desensitization (as mine was trauma based): https://www.emdr.com/what-is-emdr/#

DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy for Borderline Personality Disorder) https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/treatments/22838-dialectical-behavior-therapy-dbt

STEPPS (Systems Training for Emotional Predictability and Problem Solving (https://www.mentalhealth.com/library/stepps-for-borderline-personality-disorder)

Having a part-time job helps

Generally developing the capacity for honesty and good coping skills will go a long way to recovering.

Both BPD and FD have been "undiagnosed"

The current and real medial issues I am now not faking or inducing are a terminal GI disorder, though I am not dying anytime soon, my life will be shortened by it. I also am now actually dealing with severe chronic pain from avascular necrosis (caused by prednisone I took over the years while making my asthma worse by exposing to allergens and cigarette smoking), severe osteoarthritis (need a knee replacement and have no insurance), my knees are bone on bone, fibromyalgia, peripheral neuropathy, and the list goes on. My pain is managed medically as if I don't treat it, it is severe enough, I will become suicidal. Again be careful what you wish for.

Please feel free to ask any questions.

Hello @Imagine74

I just wanted to quickly pop by and welcome you to the forums.

Thank you for being so open with your experiences and offering to share the knowledge that you've gained from them. It's clear through your post that you have a wealth of strength, which is again demonstrated in the act of posting here and being vulnerable.

I look forward to seeing you around the forums