Ignoring myself to get through the day

Hi @Zeldar, I am a moderator here and wanted to welcome you to the SANE forums. I am sorry to hear you are struggling and scared. You have shown a lot of strength by coming to the forums and sharing your experience. This is a safe space to talk about how you feel and get support from other forum members.

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Hi and welcome, @Zeldar

I'm sorry to hear about your mental distress and loneliness 😞

Do you have any professional support? Like a counsellor, meds, psychologist or psychiatrist?

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Hi Zeldar

I'm sorry to hear about your experience. Not being listened to at the hospital must have been an awful experience. Do you have some other supports in place such as a psychologist, counsellor or GP? I hope to hear back from you soon and hope that you're ok. We really want to support you here and help you to get the right care.

Warmest wishes

Hanami

@Zeldar

I know it is really hard, but remember you had some good days, the difficult feelings don’t last forever.

Hi @Zeldar

That sounds awful, you go for help and they ignore you. I have suffered the same thing, but I didn't hurt myself. And I have heard of another patient experienced the same thing. To feel this bad there must be lots of difficult and confusing emotions and thoughts inside, but it can be really hard to identify them. I'm not sure how old you are or if you are working but I found taking a trip, maybe an hour or 2, lets my mind unwind and try to identify what's making me so upset. For me it was driving my car, but it also works for a bus trip or a train trip. I took many trips as I had many issues to identify. Getting medication will basically calm you down also if this is an option, but you will still have to try and identify what is making you upset before you can try and deal with it all. Early on is the hardest, if you can start the process it should get gradually easier as you learn to work with yourself and not be afraid of your thoughts. As mentioned if you are critical call a support service or go to the hospital.

There is help here @Zeldar , good on you for reaching out again, I know it's hard when you have been burned before. I think you will find some great support here on the same forums, I have, it's been really great. Keep reaching out! And keep on keeping on. You're amazing for getting through what you're getting through right now. If you need a chat and a distraction, jump on the music thread with your fave song or post in the good morning thread, there are a bunch of people waiting to welcome you 🙂

@Zeldar

Environmental electricity from magnetic pole variances and also frequencies [manmade and natural] go against our head.

It is inherently against us however we shape these things as the sub, the con and the suss.

There is nothing wrong with you.

Over the ages they have called these things the subconscious.

It's always going to be crap however we shape it as it is.

Learn to hate the subcon'suss'.

Pierce the shadow.

It's not you, even though you shape them.

It's okay mate, we all have to deal with this.

But it's good that you are noticing this shadow more.

Better to pierce it.

Hi @Zeldar

I’m sorry you’re in so much distress at the moment. It’s an awful feeling and I can’t imagine how much worse it feels having reached out and been rejected.

What helped last time after you broke your leg? Can you get in touch with a crisis support line and get them to call the hospital for you? That really helped me in a similar situation, in fact, even just having the crisis line tell me to go to the hospital was helpful because it gave me the confidence to try. Unfortunately some staff at hospitals aren’t as good as others with respect to mental health. Fortunately they rotate a lot and you’ll probably see someone else if you go back.

I’d recommend calling either Lifeline or the Suicide Callback Service and seeing if they can help you find a way to get the help that you need and deserve (because I am fully convinced that you deserve to be listened to and protected).