I’m not coping well

Hey @KindHeartedSoul you're not alone.

You are a good, valuable human.

I relate to a lot of what U write..do you have a trauma background perhaps, like me?

Just because of what you write about ppl wanting us dead...I guess it's abusive people who would say that. People who have their own issues and can't love or support someone who is struggling, so they shame them...

I am so sorry you feel this way that you don't feel i would be a loss. I hope it is not as bad as it seems & there is light for you or something you can hold onto and grasp.

I am glad you felt you could share here.

I am not afraid to talk about suicidality. I hope this space can work around what we need to say and listen. It is ok to share dark feelings here, I think, I hope.

I’m feeling unsafe even whilst at work… all I want is to act on these thoughts urges and voices… I wanna just ran away and leave all these behind but I honestly have nowhere to go or run… I don’t know what triggers it I just want it to end! And when I say end I mean every single aspect of my life., so done living and trying!!! I don’t get anywhere but here anyways… nothing helps or am I missing something? Don’t know what else to do?

@KindHeartedSoul ,

It is important you seek the supports you require. SANE is not a crisis service.

Please reach out to:

- Lifeline on 13 11 14

- Beyondblue on 1300 224 636

- Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467

There is an email coming your way.

tyme

I know that this forum is not a crisis service... but by writing what I’m going thru right this moment seems to alleviate something of the anxiety.... it’s not a permanent fix but hopefully in time I’ll be able to find one that does fix me.... if anyone know anything I haven’t tried please I’m all ears as I’m running out of time here... it seems that I’m gaining more symptoms than solutions... I’ve spoken to numerous services and has come out empty handed still... what do I do? I’m at a breaking point of just caving in and see where it leads me...I know I need more intensive support at this moment but which support do I still need? I feel I have enough NDIS Support but don’t have support from the community mental health team, I got gps and psychologist but not a psychiatrist... so what to do now?

Hey @KindHeartedSoul

It's great that writing it all out helps with the anxiety. That is something that can be really beneficial. A lot of people will journal for that very reason - in a 'real life' journal or even in the notes app on your phone (I have definitely done that!).

It sounds like you have some good supports which is also really great, they are not easy to find. For intensive support, hospital is not always the nicest space to be but it can keep us safe in the short-term when we don't feel we can.

I hope others can chime in with some tips and advice too. I can hear how tough things are right now and you deserve to feel supported 💛

Just in case you do want to reach out to a crisis service today, here are some numbers:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

Sitting here with you today kindheartedsoul 💛