I understand that it can be discouraging and overwhelming to try multiple medications for depression and anxiety without finding the right one, but it's important to remember that everyone's experience with medication is unique. It can take time to find the right medication and dosage, and it's important to be patient and work with your doctor to find what works best for you.
It's also important to remember that medication is just one of many treatment options for depression and anxiety. It's important to have a comprehensive treatment plan that may also include additional therapy, lifestyle changes, and self-relaxation practices like Reiki, Meditation, Shirodhara etc. Don't be afraid to discuss all your options with your doctor and consider adding additional therapies to your treatment plan.
Remember that it's okay to feel scared, and it's okay to ask for help. You're not alone in your journey, and there are people and resources available to support you.