Exhausted

Thank you for sharing what has been happening @Grace50 .

I'm sorry to hear how tough it is right now for you.

You are not alone. We are sitting with you in this.

You do deserve to live. You deserve to feel connected. You deserve to belong.

I hold my hand out to you. I'm hearing you.

Hugs, tyme

@Grace50

There are cheap options for living quarters if things get tight.

It will mean getting rid of some baggage and having to share space with people you may not want to though.

But there are options.

Don't forget that just like there are forces which enact against our body. There are also [electrical] forces which enact against our head.

But your doing this with everyone else.

Pierce through the nothing.

It's how everything grows.

And if/when you feel like it's alot. Then rest, lay down for a while.

Everything grows.

Scientists say that nothing is ever made, just converted. But they are wrong.

Everything grows.

But the reason they say nothing is made is because whatever is made is from the thing that makes it.

Their equation is equal, to their measure.

Your doing good. Pierce the nothing. Grow.

And rest when you need to.

And don't worry too much about the bank.

There are cheaper options.

@Grace50

From the things that make it.

@Grace50 Are you in therapy? Sounds like you need someone who is skilled who can help unpack all of this with you and help work with you to achieve the stable relationships goals that you desire. Sounds like a lot of healing needs to happen as well.

@Grace50

That’s a long time to be waiting. Especially given how much you’ve been dealing with. I can really relate to the feeling of being exhausted and wanting to escape that overwhelming heaviness but feeling obligated to protect family (for me it’s my grandparents/parents as I’m their only grandchild/child and I feel I need to be around to look after them when they need it). I hope you’re able to find helpful information and a sense of connection from SANE and the forums. I’d highly recommend their guided service if you can access that. BlueKnot also have helped me in the past as they deal with complex trauma.

Are there any coping skills you’ve found that ease the feeling of exhaustion even temporarily or distract you from it in non-destructive ways?

Thank you for reaching out

I will look at blueknot.

I don't have any coping skills

I just seem to be causing pain and suffering to everyone and I don't know who to talk to or where to go.

I have work friends but I have burdened them with my problems and they have their own. So many of us are hurting right now.