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I feel like there’s something so wrong with me

IdkaskurmotherNew Contributor13 Jan 2023, 1:25 am AEDT

I feel like there’s something so wrong with me

I’ll try to make this short. I feel like a bad person deep down, like there is a flip that switches in me and I can be so cruel and I get so angry and sad. I’ve been through hell and back with the mental health system been assessed for BPD even ADHD and Autism and it seems I’m too complicated for them to give me a single idea or direction as to where to go. It feels like they give up on me, I don’t know how to explain how I feel to doctors and councillors because it all feels so complicated in my head. I feel like I’m not sick enough for anyone to ever take me seriously when I say that I genuinely feel like I’m wired in a way that makes managing my emotions so hard. I feel dumb like I don’t understand anything or what people are trying to tell me. I just want help and I’m so tired of the system. I hate the waiting lists, I’m sick of being given a piece of paper telling me how to control my breathing. I’ve even had my councillor move jobs and just left me hanging, with no where to turn. I just want to get to the root of my problems which seem to be the core of my issues within myself and socially and i face every day. I feel so different to other people. It makes life so hard sometimes.

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David_888Senior Contributor13 Jan 2023, 4:13 am AEDT

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@Idkaskurmother

There is nothing wrong with you.

But know that just as there are forces which enact on our body. There are also forces which enact against our head.

Even though they are against us we still shape them. And they are known as the sub, the con and the suss.

You have to hate the subconsuss. And be here/with those and that you love.

There is nothing wrong with you.

But know that there are things that go against our head.

Mostly from natural and man-made electronic activity.

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hanamiSenior Contributor13 Jan 2023, 10:54 am AEDT

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Hi there @Idkaskurmother

Welcome to the forums. I'm glad you found us here and hope you get lots of support from our wonderful community.

I'm sorry you've had such a tough time lately. I agree that they mental health system can be completely overwhelming and it sounds like you've been subjected to that in a big way.

We have a really supportive community here that will be able to understand and relate to what you're going through.

Sending warmest wishes

Hanami

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DannixDCasual Contributor14 Jan 2023, 10:23 pm AEDT

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DannixDCasual Contributor14 Jan 2023, 10:25 pm AEDT

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I know this may sound bad, but the one thing that I found was true and helped was;

You are always going to be different, but different is a good thing because nobody wants to Be normal.

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