It Sucked! It Sucks!

Well, it finally happened...my mother in law food shamed me and then acted offended later storming off to sulk. No idea what I originally did wrong to make her angry at me as all I ever am is nice. I really put myself out there to try to please her and she got angry in reply. Her emotional issues stem from long long ago so moodiness is not unusual. The food shaming "Oh! I didn't realise the slices stuck together like that!" and then muttering about pigs. This Christmas was going to be hard for me due to my own Mum even getting lost at church and me upset seeing her like that. I had just shared this with the in-laws. At least father in law was kind, going above and beyond to look after me like family should. His brother was there and witnessed it all...I felt so sorry for him. My hubby just shrinks into himself and ignores it all. I tried to act tough but fell apart pretty quickly and had to take time out. At least "she" was now letting her bad mood out on the garden and not her family anymore. I was super struggling anyway and this has made it all so much worse. I feel lost and alone...I don't want to do this anymore, I just don't. Yes I will be safe, just so you know but it freaking hurts!