My mind is beginning to scare me

Hi @Storm,

I'm one of the moderators on the Forum, I just wanted to pop in and say welcome, and well done on your first post 🙂 It's a really scary thing to do, I know.. So thanks so much for putting in the time and courage to share your story.

It really sounds like this year has been awful for you @Storm. I can't even begin to imagine how you've been managing so many stressors and pressures all at once. I'm not surprised that you feel as if your feelings are overwhelming you- I think anyone going through what you are would feel exactly the same.

First there's the grief and loss of your father's diagnosis, the trauma and stress of the assault and of course the pressures of school compouding on it all.

I'm really glad to hear you have a counsellor that you feel comfortable confiding in. Do you feel as if the work you are doing with the counsellor is effective at helping you manage your emotions and thoughts of self-harm? Maybe if you're concerned they aren't being as helpful as they could, you could look into getting a mental health care plan from you GP and seeing a psychologist instead? If you get the mental health care plan you can ususally see someone for free, or just pay a gap.

There are lots of members on the Forum who have lived experience of the types of challenges you are going through. I hope you get the kind of support and guidance you are looking for.

Hi @Storm

The others have provided some great feedback - I just wanted to add one thing.

If I'm understanding your post correctly, you're still in high school or may now be at university?

I wanted to pass on a great resource for people under 25, which is a website called ReachOut.com

They are a wonderful organisation, which also have online community forums, like this one, but for people 25 & under. You can find them here if you're interested.

Take care,

Nik

@Storm ,

Hugs. It is distressing to feel threatened by your own thoughts.

Hope you're finding a safe place or person, someone or somewhere that allows those expectations and pressures to dissolve xx