Hey @Eden1919
Reading your post now, I wanted to let you know that you are not alone in what you are going through.
I know it probably doesn't help much.
I have years 'observer' experience of what you are describing as a carer for my friend.
I try my best to sympathise with his situation. I cannot begin to imagine the potential damage it could have on one's psyche to go through this experience of being forced meds.
As his friend, I have seen how unwell he becomes without his injections. This also potentially causes great harm to his well being. I personally cannot cope without him taking medication. Yes, this is unfair for me to expect him to take medication or even encourage CTO if he refuses. I'm sorry things are this way. It is not his fault (obviously) that he is diagnosed & required to be treated. It is not my fault that I need him to accept treatment in order to maintain any relationship with him. I am always open to the concept that he might not need the medication one day & will stand by him if he ever chooses to trial this. (This has occurred countless times already in the past)
Regarding the pain you are experiencing, have you discussed this with your doctor?
Your doctor needs to listen to your concerns, regardless if a CTO is in place. You have the right to a pain free experience (as much as possible). Your doctor, (or nurse who is giving injections) needs to make adjustments to lessen any pain issues.
I don't want make suggestions on what these could possibly be. I am not medically trained in that area & my suggestions are only anecdotal. However your nurse, or psych need to be aware
My friend has never attended attended a tribunal hearing. Likely he feels similar to you. I think also, he feels that it would be more shattering to go & feel unheard regardless. It is a very difficult situation. I am sorry you have to go through this.
Maybe, if you wanted, you could look at it as merely an opportunity to express the issues you are experiencing, without relying, or expecting the decision to made in your favour. Maybe, it could just be a place to speak your voice?
If you decide that this is not what you want to do, that is ok too.
I believe the CTO only goes for 6 months? If they do decide to extend it, it will be ok. You can reassess again after that 6 months. I understand this must be a very difficult time for you. Please talk with doctor about any negative issues. Make sure they are clear in understanding that you are experiencing pain & that this is unacceptable to you, if they plan to extend treatment
Wishing you best of luck.
maddison xx