ShelleeCasual Contributor
Struggling through the days
My story started 2 years ago with my beautiful alcoholic partner. I love this soul with all my heart but his drinking has made me something I don’t want to be, I didn’t even see it coming, I realised things weren’t right but instead of seeing that I needed to stop trying to make him change for me I kept pushing him, things have exploded now and I only hope I can find the strength to be a better person for myself first and then us, I’m terrified I will fail. Im so scared for us, we are apart at this time, it’s probably what we need but it’s so damn difficult. I thought I was going ok yesterday and then I crashed again and it was a bad space for me, I had irrational thoughts about how to see him and I had to call on my friends to talk me back to normal, they did me I love them. God give me all the strength, love, courage and wisdom to do what I need to do to be with the man I love and accept we both have flaws. I will work on my destructive behaviours and hopefully he can work on his alcohol journey, we can’t do it together without supporting each other and offering unbiased support. Thanks for allowing me to vent
