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Just thought I'd pop in

wild_roseSenior Contributor16 July 2022, 9:45 pm AEST

Just thought I'd pop in

Just thought I'd pop in and update, it's been a while.

For the most part I'm coping ok considering everything I've been through.

Today has been a particularly tough day. I'm not being kind to myself today, I'm full of hatred and rage both for myself and for ex who has now moved in with the woman he left me for.

I hate him. I hate that he's moved on and I still feel the same. It hurts. I effing hate him for it
I hate that I allow it to get to me.
I hate that I allowed someone to hurt me time and time again.
I hate that I allowed him to get so close to me
I hate that I hate him
I hate that I miss him
I hate that I'm not over this.
I hate that I'm alone

I hate that I allowed him to break me
I hate that I gave him that much power
I hate that I was so damn weak

I hate that I feel so broken beyond repair

I hate that I feel that I will never be over this

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In response to: Just thought I'd pop in

NatureLoverSenior Contributor17 July 2022, 6:21 am AEST

Re: Just thought I'd pop in

Sending hugs, @wild_rose ...

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BowSenior Contributor17 July 2022, 10:37 am AEST

Re: Just thought I'd pop in

Hey @wild_rose leaving some hugs for you. I can so relate to a lot of what you have shared here. I find it really hard to move on from my ex. There is still a lot of hatred.

i hope that it has helped to get some of this out.

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor17 July 2022, 2:02 pm AEST

Re: Just thought I'd pop in

Hey @wild_rose Love your name. I came to relate and grow from some of the strengths I linked with my own name on here.

Lots of people probably relate to feeling like that after a break up, especially after infidelity.

Celebrate your beauty and you wildness. I hope the hate can eventually be turned into energy and wisdom to empower you. We need our fire and passion. I wish I could say I had been lucky in love. Nup.

Take care Apple

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PaperdaisySenior Contributor18 July 2022, 3:15 pm AEST

Re: Just thought I'd pop in

Hey @wild_rose It's hard to carry all that hate. I've been there! 💝

Do you have anyone who can help you process this?

I'm sorry I can't offer more than words on a screen but know that you are not alone.

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RainbowDashCasual Contributor18 July 2022, 10:26 pm AEST

Re: Just thought I'd pop in

No real advice, just empathy. I’ve been there and I know how much it sux. I can tell you it will get better and it will all pass eventually, but I know how hard it is to believe that in the moment so I’ll just send a virtual hug.

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