Thursday 6pm

Hello 👋 🫂

I'm not sure what to say. I wasn't going to make a post but I hadn't for a few days...

I just read on another forum about Anhedonia. The inability to experience pleasure. I was somewhat pleased (pun intended😒) to discover there is a word for how I've been feeling. I was once so passionate, and had too many hobbies and not enough time. Recently my life feels like ... eating white bread by itself every day for your whole life. It's just bland. It's so hard to look after myself because I don't care to do things I once loved, like eating, dressing well, personal care. I have to manually force myself to do these things. It's not an instinct 😔

But I also force myself out of SI..And force myself to engage in as much conversation as I can manage... which isn't much... and is painfully bland on my part, since I seem to have little sense of humour in these days.

But alas, I will force myself to eat and shower tonight. I've been reading pride and prejudice in my spare time, escapism had re entered my life as a welcome escape.

Love you guys

sorry for complaining so much