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How do I get help?
Hi, I’m new here. Diagnosed bipoar for years and usually nicely under control. A single mum of two amazing kids. The last few months I’ve been in the darkest hole I’ve ever been in and trying all I can to claw out of it. My ex is amazing, we have a great friendship and he’s so understanding. Last night I asked if he can take the kids for a bit, which is huge because those kids are my sole purpose right now. I dropped them off this morning with massive tears from the kids and I.
I had actually planned it out to give them to him and take a few days to organise my house and everything else so it would be easier on my loved ones and I could….go. But as I left them today crying and loving on me I thought maybe a broken mum is better than no mum, so I tried to look for help. My psychiatrist cant see me for 7-8 weeks and I contacted both Beyond Blue and Lifeline who offered no practical help or understanding of where I’m at.
What do I do? I actually don’t know where to get the help I need because every websites first advice is Lifeline - who I found sounding so fake and scripted and her only advice was to ask what techniques I had to get myself through today, just make it through today. Seriously, I’ve been making it through ‘today’ for so long, I was in tears and desperate and asking how I get more help.
Making/taking phone calls is massively hard for me, it took me two fricken weeks to book in my daughter’s flute service because of my anxiety around it, so having already found the courage to call two helplines, I dont know if I can do it again.
Could anyone please recommend a helpline or what I should do next? Short of trying something and ending up in emergency to be able to access a mental health professional. I do have an appointment booked with my GP tomorrow and I’ve reached out to some family also.
