wellwellwellnezSenior Contributor
Covid (hopefully) endemic stage and avoidant pesonality
I'm taking this stage real slow. Starting to feel out of step with the world. I'm partially holding back because I want the restriction loosening to go well. My main driver is, I've always been a bit unusually cautious(occasionally paranoid) about (not so much getting covid but passing it on (having said that I'd sooner not get long-covid (but whether that happens or not is like for all of us, largely out of our sphere of control))).
My anxiety is going down at some sort of a pace. I can be around the mask-less in low concentrations for low periods of time without wanting to hit the eject button. I noticed the other day that hospitalization rates have been creeping down slowly. There will come a time when I'm again ready to share my breath with people.
In the mean-time, I'm feeling the lonelies, feeling the FOMO and feeling the conflict of being too selfish and too altruistic at the same time. I feel "different", but less the fun "distinct" different and more the sad "distant" different.
Been a while since I stopped avoiding logging my avoidance. It's of course, it's just my version of the experience. Feels text-book in a round-a-bout sort of way.
