Staying home when i need to be in hospital

Oh @Chris A death in the family effects everybody differently.

We all burn or undercook things ... sometimes I grab a chook from the supermarket and throw a salad together ... or pizzza .. do what ever gets you through the hard time ...

Hi there, @Chris

I am sorry for your loss, and I am sorry to hear that you are going through such a tough time at the moment. I think that making small and realistic goals is most helpful when you feel depleted of all energy. Just like you would take the time out when you are physically unwell, it is improtant to take time out when you are mentally unwell too- and that's completely okay! Perhaps think of tiny acts of self-care/enjoyable or self-soothing activities that work for you, that you can use to help restore your energy. You are number one!

Sending care and light,

Bubbly

Hi @Chris

gosh you have a lot on your plate. im so sorry to hear of your family's loss and difficulties. Its so hard to manage everything when its all just piling up. i find hte only way i can keep going sometimes is to only focus on the very next thing that i need to do. whether its cooking dinner, managing a lesson at work, or getting dressed. i try to shut out my brain screaming at me about the thousand other things that are needing to be done and be 'mindful' about that very next thing. soemtimes i have had help from my care workers in writing a list of the priorities that need to be done in the next day or so and just get through those, again one at a time.

i'm glad you are here writing and hopefully you are feeling supproted here. I am listening,

be kind to yourself and do remember to take small moments for yourself to have a cup of tea/coffee/herbal or what takes your fancy! take a few extra minutes in the shower, brush your hair for a few extra minutes just to take time for you really often.

take care,

lj

Finally a date to go into hospital. Tuesday next week. All the grand children will have gone home on Sunday, so i willl have a bit of breathing space. As much as i love having them, they are exhusting, and particularly so at the moment. I dont have a lot of tolerance. So my first ect should be Wednesday. I cannot access this site in hospital, its blocked.

Wishing you all the best @Chris for your hospital stay. Good luck with the ECT.

Take care.

Well I'm packed and ready for tommorow. How do i feel about my admission? Mixed feelings really. A part of me accepts its necessary. Part of me feels defeated. Part of me well here i go again, will it work. I dont understand what has been hapening to me this last few months. The mood changes are confusing and somewhat frightening. Feeling so angry and agressive, impulsive. Its not who i am. I need some clarity on whats going on with me. This site is blocked at the hospital so it will be two weeks or so before im back here.