thank you for the above suggestions friends,the good news is I managed to get some sleep and woke up at a more normal hour this morning,had a shower,ate breakfast,I may ring lifeline or possibly text a bit later today as I started of this morning in a positive frame of mind only to then just start to worry a bit much /second geuss my efforts I am still however trying to keep a positive outlook and stop dwelling so much ,two things Ive learned at the momment is I need to have more of a sense of feeling self assurance/self confidence and as much as my mind likes to by habit focus on negatives that bring me doubt ect I need to allow myself permission to state positive thoughts/share positive thoughts out loud allow myself to spring foward with positive thoughts as I tend to not give myself to share good things that I want to say out loud cause of fear of Judgement/others possible reactions ect self assurance is important cause I shouldnt need to have or expect to have validitaion from anyone but myself,it takes some work to break this habit,Ill try to keep busy ,also probly over the last week or so Ive felt a bit much of a need to feel in control as that gives feeling of assurance although logically I know Im not in control of every thing I sometimes allow my emotions to get the better of me,thanks also for the suggestions of podcasts thats definetly something to look into,also I have currently ran out of meds for now so will have to unfortunetly do without them till a bit later this week that might be one reason the negatives are coming up again a bit in my mind and thinking,might go distract myself myself now ,eat and drink regulary ect thanks for checking in @Former-Member , @Daisydreamer @NewbieBipolar 
