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Hi @destructive,

It sounds like you have a lot going on right now and I hear that its causing you some distress. I understand wanting everything to stop, I've been there when I was in a very dark place myself. From hearing what you've said, you sound like a very strong, resilient person and it takes a lot of strength to reach out on the forums and express how you're feeling and what going on.

It's important to talk about our feelings, its good to hear that you have a psychologist. Do you have any other supports you are able to reach out to?

I really think it would be good to reach out to a helpline so you're able to further discuss what you're experiencing. I'll list some helplines you can reach out to:

Lifeline 13 11 14

SANE Counselling service 1800 187 26

Take care, CalmingNature

Thanks @Former-Member . Yes, dark is a good word to describe where/how I am feeling. I am no good with helplines. Wish I could but my anxiety stops me speaking. That's why I come here. I can type.

Just watching tv then going to bed but have a feeling it'll be a rough night my little one was up a few times.last night. Teeth maybe. The problem is even if I do get some rest there is a whole other day to get through tomorrow and then the day after and day after that. Psychologist is away too. I like her but not sure she can help me. I don't think anyone can.

I understand that @destructive, it can be difficult to contact helplines, especially when anxiety is high. It is good that you've come here and are able to still express yourself.

I'm sorry your little one has been waking you up at night, being tired doesn't help and its difficult when psychologists go away.

I hear that you're feeling quite hopeless at the moment when you say that you're not sure that anyone can help you and I understand that life can feel very monotonous during times like this. I don't know if hearing this will help you at all but I just want to let you know that I don't know exactly what you're feeling right now, I can't walk in your shoes but I really hear what you are saying. I really feel like I've been somewhere similar and I understand what that can be like - it's horrible to say the least. I'm really glad that you're here and able to express yourself and I hope that helps you get through this difficult time.

Its so important to be gentle and kind with ourselves during times like this as well. I hope you're able to find something enjoyable to watch on TV and please reach out again if you need.

Take care, CalmingNature

Thanks for sharing, I feel your pain, I can identify.

Hello @destructive

Gosh you have a lot happening. Being a parent alone is extremely challenging and being sleep deprived adds to the challenge. I hope being here helps a.little to remind you that you aren't alone?

I know you said you don't do helplines but just a thought...the first time I contacted sane I was not in a position to talk through the years, so I texted. The therapist was wonderful. I was able to seek help but in a private and non confronting way. Perhaps this might work for you?

Take care of yourself 🙏💕

@Anastasia thanks. How did you text them?

Oh goodness, I can hear the desperation in your voice. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I wish I had a quick solution for you but I don't. You do say that you have previously felt better, and I know when I'm really low I try to think that 'this too shall pass'. I know that is not very helpful right now as you're in the thick of things but please be kind to yourself. You sound like you are doing the best you posibly can.
I'm going to keep you in my thoughts today and hope you can find one little thing I the day that brings a tiny bit of joy.

Hi @destructive

It's good to hear from you.

I use a phone only so will direct you on that how to find it..

Home page

Get Support

Chat to us

I've included a piccy

Chat can sometimes say "chat not available" it just means all lines are busy but preserve its worth it x

Let me know how you go ❣️

hey @destructive

Can I ask if you are getting good sleep at the moment or the worry keeping you up at night?

Hows is all your other support? Do you have family near? Is your children's father still in your life? Do you have a best freind?

thanks @DE11 I've struggled for decades

Thanks @Anastasia

@AussieRecharger no, no father. I do most things on my own.

Sleep is so so but could be worse. Tired is a lot to do with pregnancy I think. I was same with my little one. I was meant to have tomorrow off and rest while little one at daycare but now he's sick so I can't :'( feels cruel