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I accidentally scared/disgusted my crush 💔.
I have a mild crush on the waitress at my cafe.
We're not friends outside of that setting, but we've "known" each other for more than two years now. We've talked about our lives before, and we're comfortable with each other, but I hope you know what I mean.
Anyway, on Friday, she left a few minutes after I came in, and I blew her a kiss goodbye.
Initially, I was a bit embarrassed, but I didn't see her reaction. Later, I figured that was a mistake on my part, because I didn't know whether she would appreciate it. So I decided to keep a low profile.
Today, I came in for the first time since it happened, and unfortunately, she wasn't very happy to see me. Maybe I am overthinking it, but she didn't really look at me, and the expression on her face looked like she was disturbed.
That really hurts.
It's been four days, so I hope this doesn't mean things are going to be awkward between us permanently. I'm sure that won't be the case. I just need to let both of us forget about it, and maybe keep my distance for a while.
I was talking to the other staff, and she was smiling at the end. I can't tell whether she was listening to what I was saying, or whether she was talking to someone else, but that's an encouraging sign.
It is a bit of a high school problem, I have to say. One of those things that you'll probably look back on and laugh about. I am seeing my doctor tomorrow, and I plan on mentioning it, but she's older, so she's probably going to think "is this the kind of [...] young people worry about?" 😂.
It's really upsetting, though... I haven't been able to meet anyone I can show affection to without it causing problems.
It makes me feel like I'll never mean anything deeper to anyone, and I'll always be nice, but in a distant way. I guess that'll have to be good enough?
I had a best friend for about eighteen months. We had a very deep relationship, in the broad sense of the word, but even the smallest hint of something deeper than that, and she would get scared.
I never felt that way about her, but occasionally, I had to clarify that. Even if I did feel that way, would that be the worst thing in the world, and if so, why?
I'm just frustrated. Like, congratulations to the vast majority of people who don't have this problem...
