who am I ,and the need to choose who I want to be, choosing the right path for me

Good Afternoon forum friends,sometimes in life we are faced with choices only we as indiduals can make concerning our individual lives,and sometimes having to deal with our fears of what we know we want and need but just needing that courage to take the next small step closer and closer to what we want,what we need and ultimately what we deserve as its something that makes us happy,sometimes I get so caught up in my mind in my emotions with inner conflict and needing to decide whats right for me,what do I choose,who do I choose to be and where could that choice ultimately lead me,in all honesty Im having to again and again strip back the curtain lately and thats been a very freeing and yet lonely journey,In order to choose what I want Ive had to face some internal fears that I wasnt even fully aware of at the time but thankfully Ive moved past that fear and now its time to deal with the next fear and that is about choosing what I want in life regardless of what others may think or say,regardless if it isnt something that anyone except myself aprroves of cause the truth is I shouldnt worry about anyone else aproval or disaproval anymore as its my life,my choice,and my responsibility to tell my truth,to listen to others truth,to live my truth or at least begin living my truth,strip away the fears and uncertainty cause the only one thats stopped myself is me,I cannort stand in my own way of what I want for life and yet thats exactly what has kept happening over and over again everytime Im faced with deciding what I want I shrink back from saying yes to it,saying yes to my wants and my needs but now I can say yes my advice to people is if you want something dont wait for too long before you decide and say yes wether that goes for relationship choices of who you choose to be with or wether thats career choices or goals say yes to you for a change dont let fear hold you back everytime from seeking exactly what you want and neeed as long as you do things safely when you say yes to your special goals in life and as long as you are not saying yes to something that will hurt either you or those around you,then go for what you want and what you need allow yourself to work through whatever it is that holds you back wether it be fear of rejection or fear of failing or whatever work through those fears so then when you reach the other side of that journey things will be so clear to you,youll wonder why you didnt see and acknolegde what you want and need alot sooner than you did yes its important to say no but dont say no to things that are ok and safe to say yes to,this morning I woke up and I decided ,I decided to choose myself for once,I decided yes to what I want my life to be and of course that takes time and effort and slow steady steps,slow steady steps of trusting and building and listening and waiting and hoping,and being in the moment,and searching,and giving and unleashing and letting go and freeing and yet still being responsibile,and held accountable for your actions and speaking your truth but in a tactfull and kind reassurring way,moving forward be responsible for yourself,acknoleding your steps but still keeping accountable for what happens next,as they say slow and steady wins the race,Ive been faced with deciding what I want in a relationship,between two different people I could either decide to go with a man whom Im not atracted to and see only as a friend nothing more,just a friend who has a good personality but does not fullfill all my needs and all that I truely want,or I can choose to be with a man who loves me for who I am,someone who isnt rich materially but rich morally,honest has everything I want and need,someone who is my all around equal,Ive made the choice its taken time but Ive made the choice,Id rather choose love than money,Id rather choose richness of heart than richness of mind,Id rather choose someone whos right for me not just publicly but privately as well,I choose him and he needs to know that I do choose him hes my equal hes given me more than anyone else because hes given me all he can give of himself and for me thats enough thats more than enough,he has already shown through actions and effort that he chooses me hes just unfortunetly had to wait for me to fully decide yes to him,and it doesnt matter what anyone thinks about us because we like each other thats all that matters,if I dont say and act on who I want then I will not have it I will lose him if I dont tell hm some honest truth,it hasnt been perfect mind you,that is the start hasnt been perfect,and I didnt expect to choose him that is untill weve met things take time and effort evrything takes time and effort its like if a worker for example is doing the same mundane low paying job everyday and not expecting to have things change for the better,untill out of nowhere his or her boss calls either him or her to the bosses office the worker might think oh no surely this means Im getting fired or AKA Punished and instead the Boss turns to him or her and says no your not getting fired,Ive seen your work,seen your time your day in day out struggle to make ends meet but how your always reliable and responsible and you show up on time you even make time to help those in higher working rank than yourself Ive noticed your work your time your hours your struggle and Ive decided your getting a promotion its your time to be in higher rank,its your time to work in your own office,its your time to have the reward you deserve to have I just need you to say yes,your not being punished for your hard work your infact being rewarded all you have to do is say yes and accept whats being given to you as a reward for your effort