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Imposter syndrome
When someone says to "just ignore the voices" or not to be so paranoid, or when people say I am overreacting or that if my condition were severe, then I wouldn't be smiling when talking about it. All of this adds to an overwhelming feeling that I am a fraud. When I was first diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, the psychiatrist would explain why he diagnosed me. He wasn't just taking my word for it, but instead, he made several observations and had gone through my medical records to come to the conclusion he had. I know I am unwell, and I seem to be paranoid about pretty much everything, this might be another thing to add to the list. Maybe it is an arrogance that I think I could fool everyone, or maybe things get so bad for me that to function I have to hold onto some idea, however loosely, that I am in control, even though I"m not.
