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Yeah... it's BAD.
Last time I spoke to you guys, I had asked to get a transfer from work, and I got an interview with another store nearby.. unfortunately, I didn't get a call back. I may still get a call, or more interviews. A nearby store literally put an ad up on Seek saying they were hiring.
In the meantime, though, I have to go to work.. as in, tonight. Tonight is my first shift since I asked to get traded. Just the thought of coming in makes me so anxious that I am going physically numb. I really don't know how I am going to survive.
To be honest, working at all sounds really exhausting to me right now. I need a long time off. Like, a few weeks. From memory, I have got a lot of annual leave.
However, my family doesn't know that I have Depression, and they don't know about my break-up, so it would be weird to all of a sudden say that I need many weeks off. It wouldn't make sense.. so I need a good excuse.
In January 2019, the manager at the time told me that my leave had been accumulating for too long, and I needed to take a big chunk of it all at once.. so I took basically a month off. I don't know what that was about, but maybe I could tell my family that I actually NEED to take leave, so I don't have too much?
I feel like if I go there, I am going to faint anyway, so maybe I can get a medical certificate for tonight? Twice this week, my manager gave me paid time off through annual leave and I told my family that it was too quiet, and they didn't need people. I feel like if I do that again, though, I am pushing it.
I have gotten to a stage in my life where there's nothing I can really do except try not to die. I need to put a long pause on things. As I mentioned though, I don't know how I can do that and explain it to my family.
